my words.. my world..(Chayashree Pathak).

I can forgive you for leaving me… But how can I forgive u for giving me loneliness… I can forgive you for hurting me.. But how can I forgive you for the emptiness … I can forgive you for calling me weak… But how can I forgive you for letting me show my strength,.. I can forgive you for all the fights.. But how can I forgive you for not being able to be in love afterward.. I can forgive you for the tears..but how can I forgive you for not being able to smile afterward… I can forgive you for all the waiting.. how can I forgive you for not being able to move on… I can forgive you for everything.. But how can I forgive you for taking my life away…. I know loneliness makes me strong…  But I still prefer to be weak.. I still prefer to be with you…. I can forgive you, but still, I WON'T…. …………… Chaya

Sometimes in life we get stuck.. Then suffocation starts, frustration crops… I'm trying..trying day and night to come out of it… But it's like a web….getting into it more… Thought would stay calm and wait… would let the river flow.. and clean the mess I waited… but it was the storm that came…. I closed my eyes…hoping the storm would not see me and would change its lane… Yes!! I was stupid..could not avoid dat…. Still I hoped …. Still I dreamed… I was speechless…. I was tired… The energy was drained… but I was still fighting… My legs were shivering..but I was still walking…coz I saw the dot of light…. Ya… it wasn’t a ray… just a dot…. But still I hoped…still I dreamed…. ... Chaya

It wasn't about you It wasn't about me... It was about us... It wasn't about the happiness It wasn't about the tears... It was about the peace, It was about us... It wasn't about the kisses It wasn't about the fights... It was about the love, It was about us... It wasn't about the past It wasn't about the future... It was about the present, It was about us... Now when we are apart I wanna tell you... It was all about us... It will be all about us..... ...... Chaya

Loving you was my decision... Hurting me, was yours!! Trusting you was my decision .. Breaking that was yours !! Holding hands, was our decision.. Leaving that was yours !! Walking together was our decision.. Leaving me alone was yours!! Waiting for the answers was my decision... Running away was yours!! With time the scars still remain the same.. These scars have made me survive Coming back is your decision... Not forgiving is mine.... Won't let you break me down again..... Surviving is my decision  Will not let you hurt me again... ... Chaya

The moments..... It's not the time I am talking about.... It's the moment that matters!! It's not the struggle I am talking about... It's the learning that matters!! It's not the tears I am talking about... It's the pain that matters!! It's not the road I am talking about.... It's the journey that matters..!! It's not the relationship I am talking about.. Its Love that matters!! It's not the time I am talking about.... It's the moment that matters!! The moments that will never come back.. the moment that will always remain eternal.. the moment that will last forever.... .... Chaya.

D days we started liking the sky and the moon…. when talks used to never end…. D days when we used to giggle for no reason…. When others used to never understand our talks and laughs …. D days when mobile bills used to go high when sleep was only for few hours… when loneliness existed only in dictionaries.. when we used to deny calling it “Love”… d days when the confusion started building…. And we decided to stay away…. And then d day came, we realized it was all we had…. Yes! It was love.. it is love….. And today and everyday…when we smile we ask a question to ourselves….. Is it the same??? Today when we are with a crowd..we ask ourselves.. y am I still lonely… Y is it incomplete…….. And we still deny the fact that we are in love… <